Empty Hearts-
Bout' 5 o'clock in the afternoon. Cold out. Leaves are falling. Pond water is rippling. Birds are migrating. And I'm thinking. And thinking.
And hurting.
Madelyn K Bowman
Thursday, November 5, 2015
Empty Heads-
I didn't dare excuse myself from the classroom. I just left.
Running and running until I reached the nearest bathroom. Shutting the stall door, sinking to the ground and cover my face. It's a normal thing.
"It's sad when you get hurt so much, you can say 'I'm used to it'"
Said some tumblr girl who probably had a melt down or one little depression mode over her petty boyfriend.
"It's sad when you suffer from depression so much that you can't even sit in the classroom without feeling like God's not on your side." Said me. Pretty sad right? Yeah, I know. My heart and brain team up to remind me everyday.
If this were a movie or a romance book I love, three mean girls would've come in and miraculously got the stall door open and ask me, the freak (duh), if I was gonna cry some more. That doesn't really happen.
Not usually at least.
Madelyn K Bowman
Saturday, August 22, 2015
No life? Or do I just live under a rock...
Hello! I'm at home! Like always. This is good... this is ok.
Omg I'm dieing of bordom.
There's good and bad to being a homebody.
FOOOD
You get stuff done. Like cleaning. And eating. My entire kitchen.
HOMEWORK
Who invented homework? We want to spend our days at home to mourn over having zero social life. Not wasting precious time to do homework!
CLEANING? Honey, naw.
One word. Food. Wait two.
Lazy
SLEEPING
Read previous.
MUSIC=MY OWN MINI CONCERT
Duh. Rocking out to mah jam when I'm at home is bæeeee. Is that not normal?
TEXTING BAE
Hahahahahaha. I'm funny. Read previous..... #literallynolife
SLEEPING #2
This was me late night blogging so it's short. NIGHT BLABBSTERS. KISS KIS- no. No I'm sorry. Idk you.
All credits to this article to me-- thanks! Comment
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Wednesday, July 8, 2015
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Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Hi. Gonna do some stuff on my blog today. I have an explanation and its pretty reasonable to me. So please listen, or look. Thanks. :)
I've been pretty depressed lately. And stressed. I've been trying to save up for a new laptop so i can be more active.
The depression's kinda major. I haven't been able to get out of the house, I'll just sit in my room all day with the xbox and the wii; eating away my feelings. I just got "dumped" I guess you could say. Its pretty complicated, and I'd like to explain through video, but my laptop doesn't have a camera. I guess I'll just type.
I liked, correction, I like this guy. He has a girlfriend. I know right.... ugh. And I've liked him for a long time. A year passed and I finally got his number. Fast forward a few weeks, with no texting at all, I confessed my feelings and how I was not going to let my feelings for a guy take over my life. Fast forward a little more (Like 2 hours) He ended up telling me he liked me too, (remember he has a girlfriend... ugh) Fast forward some more and he had been treating me like I was his girlfriend for at least a week. I had dropped many hints that he needed to "choose" I guess you could say, and they usually went like '____, I don't feel comfortable doing this, If ____ ever found out, I'd be crushed, because I would have hurt her feelings and I wouldn't be able to live with that' He usually just closed up and texted back a 'yeah:(' So a few days later, I texted him this whole long messege, (remember We never see each other in person, even though I wanted to tell him in person) about how I hated asking, but he needed to make a choice. Fast forward 3 days. The convo went like this--
"Honestly, I like you, but I like my girlfriend more. We've been together for months and I don't want to end that."
"Its fine, ___. But you should have thought of that before you lead me on."
"I TOLD you that I didn't want to be just an object, or a second choice, I TOLD you that I didn't want to be strung along and thats exactly what you did."
I told him some more stuff that was sitting in my head, and his reply to it all was-
"I'm sorry"
LISTEN UP GUYS!!!! Girls don't want to be strung along like a puppy on a leash, when theres a big beautiful dog walking in front of you leash free. We want all the cliche stuff, that we see on instagram and youtube and TV. Also we see it at school and everywhere else. When guys do stuff like that guy did to me. We start to wonder if were good enough and we look in the mirror and our mind shouts "THAT'S WHY HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU!" and we can't shake that feeling away very easily.
So yeah, there's why I've been late. How've you been?
Comment please:) I like feedback:)
Follow me on instagram? You dont have to!xD -- Maddie.K.Bowman
Thanks for listening- er, looking! xD byeeee:)
I've been pretty depressed lately. And stressed. I've been trying to save up for a new laptop so i can be more active.
The depression's kinda major. I haven't been able to get out of the house, I'll just sit in my room all day with the xbox and the wii; eating away my feelings. I just got "dumped" I guess you could say. Its pretty complicated, and I'd like to explain through video, but my laptop doesn't have a camera. I guess I'll just type.
I liked, correction, I like this guy. He has a girlfriend. I know right.... ugh. And I've liked him for a long time. A year passed and I finally got his number. Fast forward a few weeks, with no texting at all, I confessed my feelings and how I was not going to let my feelings for a guy take over my life. Fast forward a little more (Like 2 hours) He ended up telling me he liked me too, (remember he has a girlfriend... ugh) Fast forward some more and he had been treating me like I was his girlfriend for at least a week. I had dropped many hints that he needed to "choose" I guess you could say, and they usually went like '____, I don't feel comfortable doing this, If ____ ever found out, I'd be crushed, because I would have hurt her feelings and I wouldn't be able to live with that' He usually just closed up and texted back a 'yeah:(' So a few days later, I texted him this whole long messege, (remember We never see each other in person, even though I wanted to tell him in person) about how I hated asking, but he needed to make a choice. Fast forward 3 days. The convo went like this--
"Honestly, I like you, but I like my girlfriend more. We've been together for months and I don't want to end that."
"Its fine, ___. But you should have thought of that before you lead me on."
"I TOLD you that I didn't want to be just an object, or a second choice, I TOLD you that I didn't want to be strung along and thats exactly what you did."
I told him some more stuff that was sitting in my head, and his reply to it all was-
"I'm sorry"
LISTEN UP GUYS!!!! Girls don't want to be strung along like a puppy on a leash, when theres a big beautiful dog walking in front of you leash free. We want all the cliche stuff, that we see on instagram and youtube and TV. Also we see it at school and everywhere else. When guys do stuff like that guy did to me. We start to wonder if were good enough and we look in the mirror and our mind shouts "THAT'S WHY HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU!" and we can't shake that feeling away very easily.
So yeah, there's why I've been late. How've you been?
Comment please:) I like feedback:)
Follow me on instagram? You dont have to!xD -- Maddie.K.Bowman
Thanks for listening- er, looking! xD byeeee:)
Thursday, February 5, 2015
I've let ya'll down.. I'm trying to make this blog a success but apparently that's not working...
I haven't been on since Christmas because of how busy we've been. I'm quitting the homeschool thing and I'm going back to highschool. So figuring out my classes and my program of study has been a HUGE impact on my time.
I'm going to try and get back into my daily blogging routine, and since I got a laptop that actually WORKS, I can blog from my room instead of having to go all the way DOWNSTAIRS! Agh! I don't think anyone with a 2 story house likes that word!
I'm losing inspiration, So far I've just been modifying my own versions of 17 magazines stuff, but I want something original, so if anyone has any ideas PLEASE, OH PLEASE, COMMENT!!!
Once again, I'm sorry for not blogging lately, but I'm gonna fix that. I'm literally going to put a reminder in my phone and on my laptop! Lol
Thanks!
All of my love for food!,
Maddie<3
I haven't been on since Christmas because of how busy we've been. I'm quitting the homeschool thing and I'm going back to highschool. So figuring out my classes and my program of study has been a HUGE impact on my time.
I'm going to try and get back into my daily blogging routine, and since I got a laptop that actually WORKS, I can blog from my room instead of having to go all the way DOWNSTAIRS! Agh! I don't think anyone with a 2 story house likes that word!
I'm losing inspiration, So far I've just been modifying my own versions of 17 magazines stuff, but I want something original, so if anyone has any ideas PLEASE, OH PLEASE, COMMENT!!!
Once again, I'm sorry for not blogging lately, but I'm gonna fix that. I'm literally going to put a reminder in my phone and on my laptop! Lol
Thanks!
All of my love for food!,
Maddie<3
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